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Syahirah Nadirah
08 December 2020 @ 04:31 pm


I don't post much because I hardly know what to say, but that doesn't make me any less of an awesome person. ♔
 
 
Current Music: deadmau5 - Lack Of A Better Name | Powered by Last.fm
 
 
Syahirah Nadirah
01 March 2017 @ 03:54 pm
Hello!! Is anyone still reading this? It's me nad/chocorella, and I decided that as part of my 2017 resolution to stop abandoning things, I shall post an update regarding this journal and my life.

  • I am still in all my fandoms! Yes, even though I neglected my own journal, I am still up to date with the communities, the fandoms, the spazzing and the crying. I am still very much in love with ariyama, with JUMP, Arashi, and all the other fandoms that I have no time to name.

  • However with that said, I'm obviously not posting any fanfiction at this moment!! That's not to say that I've withdrawn from writing fanfiction entirely; I just haven't had the time. I know a lot of people are capable of writing full length fiction even with a hectic university schedule, but guess what? That's not me, as much as I wish I could be. Because I am first and foremost a procrastinator when it comes to writing, and secondly because the muse for fanfiction hasn't come so often nowadays. I still do write my own works from time to time, but they are either only for my eyes or not uploaded yet on my wordpress.

  • Yes, I'm more updated on my wordpress now, which itself hasn't been updated for so long... but that has less to do with abandonment and more to do with how I'm insecure about my works and their quality, so I always end up not posting it. That's going to change, though, starting now.

  • I'm always on instagram and twitter, both of which are @chocorella, which is the handle I use pretty much everywhere.... EXCEPT HERE. I DON'T KNOW WHY. I don't know what I was thinking back in 2011. The journal chocorella is unregistered but changing names takes 15 bucks!! What the hell, livejournal!! But yes, if you still want to keep in touch with me, you have better chances contacting me at those two accounts, HOWEVER I still do respond to livejournal messages too!! (Because I check my emails frequently.)

  • I now accept requests for fanfiction, so that I can go back to writing fanfics more frequently... I have pairings that I like and don't like, so I might not accept all, but I'll try my best!!

  • WHERE ARE ALL MY HOMIES AT. Please contact me I miss y'all

CHOCORELLA OUT
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Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: DOBERMAN INFINITY - XROSS THE LINE
 
 
Syahirah Nadirah
12 January 2015 @ 01:58 am
I'm still bawling over the fact that ryosukekoibito wrote an ariyama for me for my eighteenth birthday I just


If you're reading this, I love you
 
 
Syahirah Nadirah
19 June 2014 @ 12:58 pm
curse
it is easy
to erase your existence
by a scratch over your name on paper.

but oh, you are more than just name:
you are blood in my veins
coursing through my body with pain and ill will
telling me you love me
as you bleed me dry.

because you are the curse that I can never remove
and even when I die you’ll be in my bones
on my gravestone and in my soul.


more at my newly refurbished wordpress.
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Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: 浜崎あゆみ - MOON
 
 
Syahirah Nadirah
14 April 2014 @ 08:18 pm
I'm still relearning how to write again. This is my first attempt, so it's not as good, I think.

I can't come up with a title for this one..
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in daylight, i am the ocean.
in broad daylight when I am needed
i begin ripples through the waters,
send waves and low tides ashore.
lap at people’s feet shyly with
foam.

in the moonlight, i am rage.
i float back and forth lost and alone,
pulling towards the moon and yet
never reaching there.
and in my rage I thrash about and
send waves as high as my desire for
you, only to come crashing down
in violent waves that end in quiet, muted
foam.

in daylight, i am the ocean.
and as I lap at people’s feet shyly and
desperately, i whisper

please, get me to the moon
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